Just like friends my love life had been DOA. While I am do indulge myself with myself two to three times a day, actual sex has not happened in quite a while.
I still look at the online ads for prostitutes, but I have not acted on anything this year. I am still missing my cute little lover and the idea of seeing someone else is not exciting. There was one girl who I saw a few times last year, very petite with wonderful sexual energy...amazing sexual energy...and very few boundaries.
She disappeared, most likely took some time off, and I was thinking I would never see her again. Well she is back in the game. It shocked me when I saw her photos and message saying she was working again. I instantly got hard as a rock and the sexual need as almost blinding. Even now when I think about her I get hard and my vision clouds.
When I got in bed I snuggled with my wife and that quickly turned to petting, then...lo and behold...to sex. It was...ok...silent...dark...pitch black dark...I tried to imagine I was with the girl, I pictured her body and what we have done with each other in the past. My wife halfway came, she stops herself because she can only come once and she does not last very long. I tried to get her to come again but despite all my efforts it was not happening. I was losing wood also, our bodies just don't fit together and it was too quiet and dark.
I ended up stopping, I can't remember my excuse but it was well accepted.
I plan on seeing the girl this weekend. I have already started to prepare. I find that if I spend a week not masturbating, drinking water, taking vitamins, working out...basically doing what I should be doing all the time...then I enjoy the sex much more.
It is also an anticipation of the event, building it up.
That is one of the reasons I tend to stick with one or two girls. Nothing is worse than spending a week getting all worked up and having the person not be what you expected and being let down.
I am excited and nervous, it has been a while since I played.
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Wednesday, March 4, 2015
Blogger Threats...meh
I don't really blog much anymore...not much to say.
The alert that my blog might be effected only concerned me because other blogs that I like might be affected. My original blog was compromised long ago and I killed it...dead. I miss that blog, I want to bring it back but I don't know who will see it and mess with me again.
I guess I will update a little.
Sex...the wife and I have had sex one time this year...once...only...no BJ, no touching...nothing. Not that she is to blame...I have not really tried to instigate either. I want to want to...but I usually don't. She is getting in great shape again, she got sick of complaining that she was getting fat and did not feel attractive. This is great, she is much happier, but it has not translated into any sexual feelings from either of us.
We are happy...sort of... We live well together, fewer fights. We still get annoyed as hell at each other over many things, but we also have a lot of fun with other things. There is not spark and I do miss that...want that...I don't know if her and I will ever have that again.
I have not seen a prostitute this year...yet. I have been tempted, but not enough to follow through. It is a mixture of money, police stings, guilt, too many less than spectacular experiences and the fact that all the ones that I LOVED are no longer working. The girl that my old blog was mainly about cannot even talk to me anymore, her current sugar daddy/boy friend/owner will not allow her to, if she gets caught she gets kicked out on the street. If I could help I would but I don't have that kind of cash right now and she would not take my help anyway...I know this for a fact. Not that she does not like me, or tolerate me, but she will not take that kind of help from me, she told me so.
The other gal who I used to see, and then we had a falling out, she is back. Needed help. This is a good thing, mainly because I can get X from her. I like taking X. Molly is good also but I can't sleep AT ALL on molly so it really messes up my weekend. The time the wife and I had sex was when I was on a little molly...makes me ultra horny so I am willing to deal with all her sex shit that I don't like.
Mainly I have been self pleasuring and watching porn. Things are rough on that front as it seems to take a lot to turn me on visually. I see imperfections now as opposed to naked beauty. I can spend hours masturbating varying between stiff and flaccid to thousands of images before I find one that brings me to orgasm. Usually I just settle on one and make it happen. This is usually when I start thinking that I should find a new regular girl to be with.
Well, hopefully Blogger and Google let this little corner of the internet alone. I don't know how the morality police got interested in this but I hope they find something else to do I can blog about my perversions and read perverted blogs in private like an AMERICAN!
MERICA!!!!
The alert that my blog might be effected only concerned me because other blogs that I like might be affected. My original blog was compromised long ago and I killed it...dead. I miss that blog, I want to bring it back but I don't know who will see it and mess with me again.
I guess I will update a little.
Sex...the wife and I have had sex one time this year...once...only...no BJ, no touching...nothing. Not that she is to blame...I have not really tried to instigate either. I want to want to...but I usually don't. She is getting in great shape again, she got sick of complaining that she was getting fat and did not feel attractive. This is great, she is much happier, but it has not translated into any sexual feelings from either of us.
We are happy...sort of... We live well together, fewer fights. We still get annoyed as hell at each other over many things, but we also have a lot of fun with other things. There is not spark and I do miss that...want that...I don't know if her and I will ever have that again.
I have not seen a prostitute this year...yet. I have been tempted, but not enough to follow through. It is a mixture of money, police stings, guilt, too many less than spectacular experiences and the fact that all the ones that I LOVED are no longer working. The girl that my old blog was mainly about cannot even talk to me anymore, her current sugar daddy/boy friend/owner will not allow her to, if she gets caught she gets kicked out on the street. If I could help I would but I don't have that kind of cash right now and she would not take my help anyway...I know this for a fact. Not that she does not like me, or tolerate me, but she will not take that kind of help from me, she told me so.
The other gal who I used to see, and then we had a falling out, she is back. Needed help. This is a good thing, mainly because I can get X from her. I like taking X. Molly is good also but I can't sleep AT ALL on molly so it really messes up my weekend. The time the wife and I had sex was when I was on a little molly...makes me ultra horny so I am willing to deal with all her sex shit that I don't like.
Mainly I have been self pleasuring and watching porn. Things are rough on that front as it seems to take a lot to turn me on visually. I see imperfections now as opposed to naked beauty. I can spend hours masturbating varying between stiff and flaccid to thousands of images before I find one that brings me to orgasm. Usually I just settle on one and make it happen. This is usually when I start thinking that I should find a new regular girl to be with.
Well, hopefully Blogger and Google let this little corner of the internet alone. I don't know how the morality police got interested in this but I hope they find something else to do I can blog about my perversions and read perverted blogs in private like an AMERICAN!
MERICA!!!!
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