I had another persona, an internet private persona that I have written under for the past 7 years. In the end I had to lay him to rest. I learned the hard way that sharing a private persona with real people never ends well for anyone involved. Like many others who I have known and followed through the years there was a security breach (actually a couple) and things were compromised. With luck the damage will be contained, however only time will tell.
A little about my self...Peter...my new name.
Without giving away too much I will say that I am a husband, a father, a professional, a business owner, whoremonger, druggie, drunk and a cheat. From the outside looking in I am a perfect husband and father, model of the community. From the inside view things are quite different.
I started using whores 7 years ago, the second one I ever saw captured my heart, mainly through my dick. It was the best sex ever, to date only one person has matched her ability. Little did I know that she was also a heroin addict and a complete wackjob mentally. I was quickly sucked into her world, I would sit in my car for hours waiting for her to answer my texts so I could give her money and have an hour of pure sexual joy.
I was lulled into the idea that she cared for me, she did not...does not. I am sure in some small way she has feelings for me, however, in the chaos that is her life I am not sure she knows the difference between feelings and using people. He whole life has been about being used and using people.
In this 7 years it has been on and off again and again with her and I. There are other players in this little drama...boyfriends...sugar daddies...other clients...it has been a real ride. I thought it was over for good this last time, however I recently was contacted by her again asking for help.
The other big player is another whore who I developed a friendship with. I stopped sleeping with her years ago but continue to help her when she is desperate. She is a friend but a deeply troubled one who I cannot fully trust.
So, that is me....Peter...starting again...
