A new begining

I had another persona, an internet private persona that I have written under for the past 7 years.  In the end I had to lay him to rest.  I learned the hard way that sharing a private persona with real people never ends well for anyone involved.  Like many others who I have known and followed through the years there was a security breach (actually a couple) and things were compromised.  With luck the damage will be contained, however only time will tell.

A little about my self...Peter...my new name.

Without giving away too much I will say that I am a husband, a father, a professional, a business owner, whoremonger, druggie, drunk and a cheat.  From the outside looking in I am a perfect husband and father, model of the community.  From the inside view things are quite different.

I started using whores 7 years ago, the second one I ever saw captured my heart, mainly through my dick.  It was the best sex ever, to date only one person has matched her ability.  Little did I know that she was also a heroin addict and a complete wackjob mentally.  I was quickly sucked into her world, I would sit in my car for hours waiting for her to answer my texts so I could give her money and have an hour of pure sexual joy.

I was lulled into the idea that she cared for me, she did not...does not.  I am sure in some small way she has feelings for me, however, in the chaos that is her life I am not sure she knows the difference between feelings and using people.  He whole life has been about being used and using people.

In this 7 years it has been on and off again and again with her and I.  There are other players in this little drama...boyfriends...sugar daddies...other clients...it has been a real ride.  I thought it was over for good this last time, however I recently was contacted by her again asking for help.

The other big player is another whore who I developed a friendship with.  I stopped sleeping with her years ago but continue to help her when she is desperate.  She is a friend but a deeply troubled one who I cannot fully trust.

So, that is me....Peter...starting again...